Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Oh, How Pinteresting!

Today we are under a freaking tornado watch. This weather is KILLING me! Snow 2 weeks ago, ice last week, now 67 degrees with 60mph winds and a tornado watch. Seriously mother nature?!?! Get a grip girlfriend!
I thought we could all use some little laughs today, so I hope these make you smile.
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I've heard this a time or two in my life...
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My sweet friend Manda tagged me in this pin and it's just so perfect. You know we gotta end OHP days with a sexy man and he definitely has that title.
How about that moment when you realize that most of your pins are alcohol related....

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Boy Crazy

Part of my new-ish (is it still new after almost 3 months???) single girl lifestyle includes checking out boys. I am really not one of those girls that has a "type" of guy and sticks with it. I have dated all different kinds of boys - different looks, different hobbies, different personalities. I like them all! One type I have been quite hung up on lately is a good ole country boy. I cannot shake my attraction to country boys! Give me a boy who wears boots, drives a big truck, plays guitar, drinks Jack D and knows how to sweet talk with a Southern accent...oh be still my heart.! I've never dated a guy like this so maybe that's why it's time.
For example - if you know me at all then you know I have an obsession with LB. I could not love anyone more than I love him. Creepy? Yes, but strangely true. Maybe it's his tight jeans that hug his sexy booty...his Georgia accent...his voice...dayyyyyum!
Next up - Easton Corbin - helllllllllo hottie! He's coming to Knoxville in September and I think I will be buying a ticket to see him and maybe ask him to marry me. His voice reminds me a lot of George Strait, who I love too.
Jake Owen - Not your typical country lookin' fella, but still hot. I think he's from Cali so there goes that accent, but I could manage to look at him for a while.

Kip Moore - He is my new obsession. A little scruffy looking, but I dig it. You just take that beer money and drive me around in your truck, honey. (those are references to his songs for your non-country fans).

I'm sold! I have decided that my next boy will be a country one and I ain't mad about that decision one bit.


Monday, January 28, 2013

Weekend Update

Heeeeey girlfriends! I have been laying low with really no excuse other than pure laziness. Friday we had the ice storm of the century in Knoxville and shit was cray! I couldn't even walk down my driveway, much less drive to work so I took an "ice day". See also ice day = fat day. Ugh! My whole weekend was very low key and I didn't really have much to take pictures of so this is a mini version of Weekend Update. I went to the gym, grocery store, Walgreens, did laundry...all the usual boring domestic weekend crap.
This lazy little girl loved having her mama home for an ice day

THP (TN Highway Patrol) lost an officer on Friday during the crazy weather shenanigans. I was truly heartbroken to hear this and I will admit I cried even though I did not know this man. Coming from a family of LEO's, it's very real when a tragedy happens. God Bless all of our first responders!

Nothing gets my ass running on the treadmill like hearing Lukey tell me to shake it for him!
Hope your weekend was more eventful than mine! Now it's back to my 5 day work week grind.


Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Random Wednesday - Love & Hate

Happy Hump Day babydolls! I know you've missed my pretty face voice around here the past couple of days, right? Just humor me and say yes. Thankfully Mr. MLK had that dream so I could be off work on Monday and I was slummin' out in hangover city. Worst hangover I've had since I don't know when. Yesterday I was just so blah that I needed a little break. But today I'm back and linking up with the lovely Ms. Shanna for Random Wednesday - Love & Hate edition.

Love my new favorite quote. Thanks to Pinterest I find new favorites all the time, but this one really hit my spot. Nailed it. And honestly, I think we can all apply this to our lives.
Hate that it's so easy to spot a girl going through a breakup by all the "I can do this" quotes that she pins. Kinda makes me feel like a loser...

Love Twitter. More than Facebook, probably equal to my love for Instagram. Where else can you make up your own language in hashtags? #ilovehashtags #sueme You can find me here on Twitter - tweet tweet baby!
Hate that I'm on Twitter so much it kills my phone battery...oops! Obsessed, much?

Love that we booked our hotel for Louisville in ONE MONTH to see Luke Bryan! Did I tell y'all I'm going with a BOY?!?! How's that for a date?? More on that story later...
Hate that I will also be picking up my wedding dress that week before we go....ugh! I had to make this small because it hurts to see it normal sized.

Love all the new music I've downloaded lately. Music has been such a comfort to me. I have spent many nights sitting around listening to music instead of watching TV. Easton Corbin, Kip Moore, Pitch Perfect Soundtrack, Little Big Town, Gary Allen (I'm on a country kick), and duh JT!

Hate that I've somehow managed to royally screw up my iTunes and I can't get any of these songs on my phone...any iTunes gurus out there want to help a girl out?


Friday, January 18, 2013

Friday's Letters

Thank you sweet baby Jesus it's finally Friday!
Dear Self - I'm honestly a little proud of you after this week. It's okay to stumble as long as you pick yourself back up. Since Tuesday I have been eating right and working out, and honestly I already feel so much better. No lie. I will probably stumble again, but as long as I know I can redeem myself then I'm okay with that. #goshimsomature Dear Cutie at the Gym - Thank you for boosting this girl's self esteem Wednesday night by hitting on me! You're probably 21, but hey I'm okay with that! Dear Knoxville Blizzard of 2013 - you were so pretty while you lasted, but honestly I'm glad you're leaving today. The sun in shining and that makes me so happy. The high tomorrow is 54 but I'm going to act like it's 80.

Dear 3 Day Weekend - I see you girl! You and I are going to be so productive, but we are also gonna go out with our boots on Sunday night. YAY! Dear Luke Bryan - 35 days baby! I'm coming for YOU and your booty!

Dear Miranda Lambert - Thank you for speaking to my soul with these lyrics from your new song! Homegirl knows about numbing some pain at the expense of your liver and knowing when it's time to hide your crazy. YES! Lesson learned.

Happy Weekend everyone! Enjoy it and count your blessings!


Thursday, January 17, 2013

Me in a Nutshell

I borrowed this little A-Z post from Keisha. I have some new followers up in here so I thought it would be a good "get to know me" type of deal. Plus, let's face it after yesterday's post of sappy substance - we need to keep it light hearted! (Thank you by the way for every single one of you who reached out to me and shared your story or offered me encouragement - LOVE YOU ALL!)

A. Age: Yikes recently turned the big 2-8...but if anybody asks you I'm 27, k?
B. Bed size: Queen and it's still not big enough for just me. I like to sprawl out!
C. Chore you hate: Going to the grocery store. I would trade any chore for that one.
D. Dogs: Everybody loves Ms. Tilly!

E. Essential start to your day: A hot shower. Caffeine. Kiss from Tilly out the door.
F. Favorite color: Pink
G. Gold or Silver: Have you met me?? Gold...preferably gold glitter. I do wear more silver jewelry though.
H. Height: too short for how wide I am! BAHAHA! I'm 5'4"
I. Instruments you play: I attempted to play the clarinet in 6th grade band and got kicked out and put in chorus. I dabble a little in piano. I would love to play banjo!
J. Job Title: Business Development Coordinator - it's just a fancy marketing title
K. Kids: No thank you!
L. Live:

M. Married: That's a negative! Ouch! {See the past 2.5 months of sorrow in my life.. or yesterday's post.}
N. Nicknames: Most of the people call me Nik...creative, I know.
O. Overnight hospital stays: None surprisingly. Many day stays and scary hospital trips, but no overnight ones...yet?
P. Pet Peeve: People who chew loudly...don't use their blinkers when turning...take up mirror space at the gym just staring at their muscles...don't laugh at my jokes..I could go on for dayssss
Q. Quote:  New favorite as of yesterday... If you want to see all my favs you can see them here on Pinterest.

R. Righty or Lefty: Righty tighty
S. Siblings: Dylan, my handsome crazy redneck baby brother

T. Time you wake up: 6:30 am weekdays, usually around 8-8:30 weekends
U. University attended: University of Tennessee, Knoxville - GO VOLS!
V. Vegetables you dislike: Beets? Is that a veggie, hmmm I don't know? I really love most of them!
W. What makes you run late: being hungover...hey! It happens!
X. X-rays you've had: broken arm, leg, chest/collar bone, head, broken toe, back...all kinds!
Y: Yummy food: Japanese food - hibachi, sushi...that's my fav! I didn't get to looking this way by not eating yummy food.
Z. Zoo Animal: Hippos - I used to have an obsession with hippos back in the day. Loved them!


Wednesday, January 16, 2013

It Ain't Always Pretty...But It's Real

Real talk – I have serious issues right now. PMS is beginning to rear its ugly head again. 2nd month in a row that I am experiencing these awful side effects. Tears, zits galore, and my appetite in just unable to be quenched. I think that my current “new-ish” single girl status has everything to do with it. I’ve been binge eating y’all. And I mean that honestly. I just eat, and eat and eat until my stomach is so full and poking out of my shirt. Then I feel guilty and want to be mean to myself for doing it and not being able to have control over my mind like I need to. It’s BAD! I feel like a girl who is out of control on a Lifetime movie!
Back in November, 2 weeks post-breakup , I was down 8 lbs. Of course this was not healthy weight loss. I had completely lost my appetite, I was barely taking in calories at all. I was spending the rest of my time crying them all out. So naturally the weight just disappeared within a matter of days. I felt happy with my size though, because it was the goal size that I have been striving for. Then a couple weeks later, the week before I started my period I lost control over my eating. Instead of being too distraught to eat, I began to just devour my feelings by the handful. Fast food, snacks in between, alcohol to top it off. Again, naturally my weight has just steadily ballooned back up. Right now I am 2 lbs heavier than I was the day that Skye broke up with me. UGH! It’s all so frustrating. I am in tears as I sit here and write this. I feel out of control. I can manage to have a good day or two, but then one wrong snack sends me into a binge spiral. I’VE GOT TO GET A GRIP. I need your help! On Monday I told you that I had made 6 weeks goals for myself. One of those goals was obviously to try and lose that 8-10 lbs again. That’s at a pretty healthy rate of weight loss IF I can just manage to get on track.
I can blame it on PMS, which does play a role. But I do have unresolved emotional issues right now that I need to deal with. My heart is heavy. I’ve spent the past 10 weeks trying to enjoy myself, and I will admit I’ve have had a blast with my girls. I’ve 100% been self-medicating! With NyQuil at first, then alcohol, now food. {Why can’t I self-medicate with excessive exercise??} 10 weeks down and I still fucking miss him. I miss the memories, I miss his smile. I miss just having someone who took care of me and loved me every single day. But he didn’t love me enough to stay. I know this is the ultimate pity party going on right now, but I just have to get this off my chest. The shitty part is; I was feeling stronger. I was feeling like I was moving along and dealing and staying positive…then ever since Christmas I’ve been feeling depressed. I’m not crying every moment of every day or anything like that, but I have a dull consistent ache in my heart. When I heard that a heartbreak is the worst pain you can ever go through, I never believed it. I saw my aunt lay in bed for literally months after her divorce. Unable to get out of bed, unable to live her life because she was so depressed. I remember thinking she was weak and she needed to power through. I thought I had been through a heartbreak before with my high school boyfriend. I remember being 18 years old and thinking my life was over after that breakup. Just having no idea what life had in store for me and feeling scared. A couple months later I met Skye and we just had the kind of chemistry you see in movies. Instant, fast, real there was no doubting it – even though it eventually took us a year to begin dating. Now, 10 years later I have experienced real heartbreak and I can honestly say that I thought I might not survive it. (not like physically die, but just never emotionally recover) I still question that some days…like today. I got an email from him yesterday. Nothing of any substance, just him forwarding me something I needed that came to his email. My heart dropped and I cried when I saw his name on my phone. I feel like a piece of me will absolutely love Skye forever. I wonder why he doesn’t miss me the way I miss him. That’s not real love. I worry about my ability to feel real love again. The boys have definitely been coming out of the woodwork and I have been turning them down right & left. I’ve hung out with a few guys who were already friends, but I just cannot seem to fathom the thought of dating. Right now it feels like no guy could live up to my impossible love standards. I know I will love again one day, but will it be on the same level?
My comforts have been out of whack. Food should not be my comfort. It will only make me chubby and feel miserable about myself. God has a plan for me. I know this with all of my heart, even in my deepest moments of doubt. I know that I am tough. Maybe in a couple months I’ll meet the man of my dreams? Maybe I’ll move away from Knoxville? Maybe I will feel whole again? I take comfort in my blog friends. You have been without a doubt an amazing source of strength for me during this tender time. I can never never never thank you enough. The cards, texts, emails, gifts, trips to visit me and lasting friendships – I can never repay these acts of kindness. I take comfort in knowing this is a just a moment of weakness, and it shall pass. The weather is not helping my funk. It’s been raining here for a week straight. Maybe this weekend, the sun will shine and my spirit will be refreshed.
I vow to myself (wow that sounds so super serious) that I will not let my mind or my heart control my body. No more binge eating. I will allow myself to miss the memories, because they were precious and deserved to be missed. But I will not allow myself to look back in the past. I vow to keep pushing forward. In order to get through this mess, I have to keep believing that the best days of my life are up ahead. By the time I get to see Luke Bryan (hello man of my dreams) on February 22, I will be looking like a sexy bia. I will be confident from meeting my goals. I will be stronger because I will be almost 16 weeks post-breakup at that point. Thank you friends for listening to me gripe and letting me get these negative feelings out. It’s healthy to vent, right? Maybe somehow my story can help you - can empower you or you can pass it along to someone who needs it. There’s your earful today.
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Monday, January 14, 2013

Weekend Update

Good Morning lovers! I'm back in Knoxville - safe & sound from my cray cray girl's weekend in Nashville with Kim & Cassie. Now it's back to work, back to reality and I'm in full detox mode. I have 6 weeks until Luke Bryan so I put myself on a 6 week plan to get back into my healthy lifestyle. It might make my life kinda boring, but it's a much needed break from the crazy pace I've been trying to keep.
If you follow me on Instagram {nikkib918} then you've probably already seen these, but here you go again. It's always fun to re-live the weekend through your pictures and BOY we had a BLAST! I think we managed to visit every single bar in Downtown Nashville. We went a little hard Friday night so Saturday was a bit more low key. Poor Cassie had a stomach bug all day Saturday, which initially of course we thought was just a hangover. She's such a trooper. These girls are so special to me and they have been such great friends. I miss them already!! Hope they enjoyed their first time in Nashville, despite the rainy weather!
Kimmy, My Yankee
We didn't see Lukey in person...but 6 weeks and I'm coming for him in Louisville!
Shotski @ Coyote Ugly
 I can't show you all the pictures...especially since all the incriminating ones are of me! haha Even though I'm still tired from all of our fun and travels, I'm so thankful I got to spend the weekend with my best friend Amanda & my new BFFs!

Happy Monday!

Friday, January 11, 2013

Nothin' Makes Me Holla like a Friday

Howdy party people! This week has literally just flown by for me. I had a super busy work load, which was good because my little mind has been wandering around to places it doesn't need to be. I had TWO dreams about Skye this week and put me on the verge of sadness. Obviously, he's still on my mind...
No fear - I have a remedy! What's the best way to get an ex off your mind?? GIRL'S TRIP!
Tonight I am officially meeting up with Kim & Cassie for my first real in person blate in Nashville! HOLLLLA! We are going to get white girl wasted and bombard you all on Monday with pictures of your shenanigans. Nothing cures the blues like some crazy girl time! Maybe I'll get lucky and find the hot country boy of my dreams?? You never know!
Fingers crossed we run into this hottie in a bar! Come to mama!
I don't know if I lost 2lbs this week, but I doubt it. I did manage to get in 3 workouts, but I also had one day that I binged on I'd give myself a semi pat on the back. My body just feels ick though. I am honestly looking forward to completely detoxing next week and getting myself on the right track for Spring. My goal is to lose the 8 lbs that I have gained back that I originally lost immediately post break up, plus some. I would say 10-15lbs total.
This weather has been crazy! It's supposed to be 70 tomorrow and then stormy next week and 40's again by late next week. Maybe that has something to do with why my face has been a complete grease ball this week? I don't know, but I don't like it! Ugh!

Happy Weekend y'all! If you don't hear from me on Monday then I probably just couldn't bring myself to come back home and face reality...don't come looking for me!


Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Oh, How Pinteresting!

We are officially half way through the work week, which also has managed to keep me incredibly busy. I love busy work weeks, that means faster to Friday. Let's show off all our fancy pins this week. You can find me on Pinterest here.
My next glitter Pinterest Project!
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Rocky Top You'll Always Be
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I have good intentions...but I love some cake!
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Your man candy for the day....Mr. Bradley Sexy Cooper
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