Instead of doing the usual Weekend Update today, I wanted to do something a little different. I know the past month or so I've talked a lot about fitness & getting back on the wagon (I have fallen off that wagon so many times, you would think it would have run over me and crushed me to death by now).
I can get into a good routine with my workouts, but I have NOT been able to get control of my eating habits. Sure I can maintain eating healthy Sunday - Thursday of the week, but then on the weekends I go nuts and just eat, eat, eat. I have touched a little bit on the fact that I am binge eating, but I think it really just hit me this morning that I have a problem with it. I stepped on the scale this morning only to realize that bloated feeling I've had is because I have gained 25 lbs since DECEMBER! I wanted to throw up, I wanted to cry, I wanted to run away and hide my chubby little body in a closet. No wonder my pants are tight and some of them don't even fit anymore. I have no idea why I like to self sabotage, but apparently I do. I cannot even imagine showing off myself in a bathing suit right now.
This cycle stops TODAY. April 1st is a new beginning and I mean it dammit! My methods of stuffing my face when I'm bored or stressed out are not healthy. I am going to be following the Weight Watchers Plan and working my ass off to lose some weight. I had a goal set for March to lose 8 lbs, but what did I do? I lost and gained the same 2 lbs each week. I know the right things to do to lead a healthy lifestyle, I just have to do them. I want to feel better about myself and more comfortable with my body by the end of the month. So here we are April 1st starting with a Motivational Monday because let's face it, I need a kick in the teeth!
Also, don't forget I am hosting the 30 Miles In 30 Days Challenge again for April! I will be doing the link-up on Thursdays so we can all share our stories.